Day 365.

Today. Last day of the year.
I'd usually have loads to write about when it comes to this. But this time round, I turned the corner to find dead end.
Overwhelmed with tons of feelings. Whether feelings that will bring smiles. Whether feelings that will bring tears. Though it seems to me those carrying with them the negative vibe is currently dominating my mood and playing tricks with my mind. While the others quickly scrambled into their hiding spot, keeping safe from the cursed.
Doesn't feel good at all. Always kept far away from the desired. It feels like there is an invisible force field, keeping guard, the invincible aura, playing role of that Great Wall of China. There's just so much a young heart can take. Such a pity. Pathetic.
The year passed by swiftly, irrefutably.
So much to reminisce about. Too much to be able to contain it in this virtual diary of mine. Well, I just hope they all stay lingering in my mind till my face turns wrinkly and hair turns snow white. Okay that might sound a little crazy since we don't even know our fate and whether fellow Earthlings can survive year 2012 as stated in the mystery calender by the Mayans. Yeah we don't.

Well, what a way to end the year.
However, I always believe the preceding year is always not as good as the current and hence, year 2011 will be a better one. So put up a great smile and usher the new year with a bright and positive heart.

I think I miss you too much
That's why my heart aches
That's why my eyes tears
To the sight of your beautiful features

Happy New Year Folks.
Signing out for the year, PeiNingLee.

ADP Annual Ball 2010.

Careful – Paramore

Well, I was planning to write a long post for this but due to my endless procrastination, I sorta lost the inspiration to do so since it was long time ago. Well, feels like its more than a month ago.

So, the event was on the 19th of November, Friday. I can still remember vividly that day was Bio group report submission due date. Well, the whole week itself was filled with many assignment submission and it didn’t feel like prom is nearing at all. Not to me, not to my friends. Even my dress, accessories and heels were all a last minute thing. Was too busy with course works.

The event was held in Park Royal. Before that, washed and blew my hair at a saloon Justin’s friend was working at.

Dressed in the short black flowing dress and a pair of silver strap heels, I walked out of the ladies and all I need then was make up to be fully presentable. No. I don’t know how to do it myself but thankfully, I have all my girlfriends to save my face. First was Cassandra, who helped me with the eyeliner. Then Leanne to help with the touch up. Then back to Cassandra with the eye shadow. Then a few more with I don’t remember who. Sorry I can’t remember you and it wasn’t entirely my fault because I was shouted at whenever I attempt to open my eyes or even try to peer through the little slit I forced open to see what was going on. Yeah they raised their voices at me :’(  Nah but I won’t blame them, they just excited for me since they never seen me in makeup. :D

Everything was fine and fun. Awkward moment was when they opened the dance floor for couples and for everyone else. Scarcely a few went up and danced their heart out. Well, that was mainly because the song prepared by the DJ weren’t always prefect for the atmosphere. Thumbs down.

The fun parts were the photo taking sessions in between everything and the hangout session outside of the ballroom. :)

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After the prom was some settling unfinished things then off to club at Sheraton for the after party in the heavy downpour. Scary. Never been in KL when it floods and my first time just had to be in the middle of the night in a small car. Darn afraid that the car will just fail on us. Reached there to find everyone hanging around the hotel lobby. So the after party was cancelled due to lousy planning. Its heading home after that.

Removed the makeup and took a warm shower before lying down on the sofa, awaiting text message from the gentleman who sent me home just to make sure he made it home safe. Crawled back to cuddle with my huggies under the nice warm sheet and fell deep into dreamland.

The End.

Highland Haven Retreat.

Embers – Helen Jane Long

Imagine three families with the surname Lee, taking a trip up to Cameron Highlands. Imagine three cars, cruising down the highway in a perfect sequence of silver, black and white. Imagine a rather heavy meal in every subsequent three hours. :)

Saturday, 4th September was the day when we went up to Cameron Highlands. Oh yeah, this is a very delayed post. Hmm… so the two families I went with were all big people. They were like half giants to my family only because we appear minuscule standing alongside them, like dwarfs. Big people, big appetite, high metabolism rate. That explains the very frequent heavy meals throughout the trip. :P

We checked in at Ye Olde Smokehouse.

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The authentic English Tudor style hotel was originally built in 1939. The entire building was surrounded by green grass, fountain and white steel benches, beautifully decorated by myriad species of colored flowering blossoms. The tea garden concept provides a much laid-back and tranquil ambience. Having sitting on the bench, sipping sips of English tea, enjoying the gentle warmth of the sun embracing your skin while cold breeze sweeps past your cheeks to counter the heat. Its sheers bliss. Really.

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The interior design of the Smokehouse was stunning as well, completed with many interesting collections including horseshoe collection and wall hanging plates. I personally adore such collection and find them very intriguing and pretty.

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English breakfast in the morning was very filling. It is inclusive in the price you pay for the stay there. Scones are considered rather popular in Cameron Highlands and in the traditional English breakfast, you will get to taste the usual English delicacies. They also serve tea with scones, cream and homemade strawberry jam.

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So basically, its snapping pictures all the way for me alongside the two uncles who were also holding their DSLRs. Live tutor. Very helpful. :D

We stopped by the teahouse halfway up the mountain and halfway down the mountain, just like any other time. Snapped pictures of the breath-taking scenery. I adore the tea plantation. Very beautiful.

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There is no beauty, no ugliness, just existence.


Love forever and always,


and so,

On My Way Here - Clay Aiken

And so, life goes on.
Two years ago, at this time, I am already in bed. Nice and warm. Oh if you are thinking about nice spring bed with superb comfy quilt cover, you are wrong. I was sleeping on the nicely heated mat, covered with thick cotton blankets, while the temperature outside was just a few degree Celsius to freezing point for water. Yeap it definitely felt as good as how you imagine it to be.
Only problem I had then was that I constantly allow my devious imagination to run wild. Relating the typical Japanese shed to the freakylicious Japanese ghost movie - Ju-On.
Yeap, I was living in a shed. An isolated building where my host family only came to for meals downstairs. It was small. I even had to clean all the thick layers of dust before settling in. Anyway, I'm drifting...
Staring at my YE blazer hanging five feet above from the tip of my toes, and the shadows of the pine trees swaying along with the rhythm of the winter breeze formed on the white surface of the cupboard, I was certain that I felt goosebumps growing out from the surface of my arms.
I was then, in Chiba, Japan, under a Lion's Club Youth Exchange Program. A nicer and more prestigious way to put it is that I was once a Malaysian Youth Ambassador!
Heh... sounds really cool huh? I know I know. *does the hand gestures* :)
Its a wonder how time flies.

I never really liked holidays, especially long holidays. Never really look forward to one.
Reason being that
I won't be seeing people I miss seeing. You get what I mean?
I won't be seeing my friends as often as how I do during schooling days. I love my friends. They are gorgeous people.
I don't get to go for yum cha sessions with them friends during break time.
Being at home, not really a good thing. Yeap, there certainly are days where I can just lie around, be a couch potato in my baggy shirt, comfy shorts and hair in a messy bun and no one gives a damn about it. Those are the days I don't mind at all!
Being at home, feeling incredibly bored. Aimless, yet not allowed to leave the home. That sucks. Just had to sit in front of the computer for some virtual indulgence while waiting for my skin to grow on the chair I sit on.
Being at home, doing all the house chores. That sucks to the core. No further comments on that.

On a brighter and more positive perspective, I get to go out! Christmas holiday is coming soon too. I adore Christmas decorations. So beautiful. Bring smile to my face. :)

p.s.: Always keep your hopes up high, the best has yet to come. xx

Stay tuned for more posts! Toodleloo~

Fluffy Unicorn?


1. to justify my absence, I was having my exams...

2. Just a brief recap about my finals, everything has been going well until the Psychology papers come. Compared to Research Methods, Human Personality was way tougher. It was out to kill! Just as the mid-term for it, everybody died after that paper. May we rest in peace.

3. So, I have serious sleep deprivation just as any other times during exam. I remember saying that exams totally suck the daylight out of me, leaving me a dried up skeleton at the end of the day.
I see my face condition deteriorating. Now it feels so rough and dry. I guess I have to catch up a lot on my beauty sleep! *snores snores*

4. Now that exam is over, I have this heavy weight off my shoulders. But, in the meantime, I should really start researching on my universities and see to the applications as well. Can't be procrastinating all the time. Hey, I am becoming a bigger procrastinator as time passes. Noooo not good.

5. And no, I haven't taken my Toefl yet. Going to take it the first thing next year. Make time for practice, Pei Ning. Stop slacking off please thank you.

6. Christmas is coming! I really need to go to shopping malls and admire the beautiful Christmas decorations. Yeah, 13 days into December and I haven't seen a single Christmas decoration yet. Just proves how long I have been staying at home like a total study freak.

7. It is really sad. Come to think that my holiday only lasts for 3 weeks. Forcefully.

8. I'm turning 18 soon. Well, I feel quite scared and nervous. I'm not a birthday person. Definitely not. Turning 18 though, sounds good to me. :)

9. I feel so outdated. Really! The last movie I watched in the cinema? *nervous laughter* You don't want to know. Its ages away. Yeah I need to watch movies. Movies!

10. Just to make the list look perfect, it has to end at ten. But I have nothing to talk about already. Hmm... This holiday is going to be interesting. I promise I will post those that I missed throughout the year. Oh yes that includes post for my trip to Egypt! Eeee I'm a real procrastinator.

Bubble face! *boink boink*
Please pardon my scrap thoughts.
& randomness

Till then!
Lovely, Pei Ning


Clearly, I haven’t been pushing myself hard enough because I haven’t been studying much. Biology paper is on Monday, yet, I barely know a few facts about it. I think it is time to feel the tension build up and feel the stress.
I need more motivation. I need less distraction. That’s what I need. Badly.

If you remember my counseling experience from the last post before this, I’m so proud and ecstatic to say that it is finally over. Well, I was this close to being late to the last session.
An hour before it, Justin and I decided to walk over to Hock Lee’s at Jalan Batai for lunch. It was approximately seven minutes walk there under the hot sun. Nonetheless, a great company just makes everything great and laid back. So we stopped by at a typical Chinese coffee shop and ordered Wan Tan Mee. While we chatted, I can’t stop myself from taking glances off the clock hanging on the wall. I sort of like how they haven’t painted the walls in many years and that the paint now turned yellowish, rendering the onceuponatimeinthe60s vibe. :) 
Anyway, 15 minutes passed and our food weren’t here yet, so I went to check on it and that lady literally replied me in a rather frustrated tone that she is preparing it. I went back to my place opposite of Justin’s with that wthinmyface expression. So we waited again. Another five minutes passed and I was quite fidgety then already because my counseling session starts in less than half an hour’s time. I went over to check for the the second time and that aunty gave me the same tone, unfriendly pissed reply. At that point of time, I really felt like cancelling the order and stomp off. Guhh…

In the end, I made it on time to the session and Father Philip told me that this counseling session will be a relaxing one. Being the curious and rebellious me, I asked him, “Why is that so?” in a rather sarcastic tone, since that was what he always asks me in the past three sessions. Oh and it went well, with less awkward moments in between. As promised, I told him how I was stressed over the counseling sessions before, and everything was back to square one again. All the frivolous questioning.
Finally my session ended earlier than expected and I realized it only lasted approximately 45 minutes. Nevertheless, my session was still the longest among the four of us who went for counseling too. I guess he just likes to talk to me that’s all. -.-

Justin went in and came out. He began telling me how Father Philip was giving him a massage at the shoulder area where he hurt himself. I thought, that was gay, and spent the next 15 minutes thinking Father Philip is gay while staring at Justin with that über-disgusted look plastered across my face. It was epic.

Finals starts next Monday and ends a week after. Wish me luck.


We are all a little weird and life's a little weird itself
But when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours
We join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love
Silent moments with you isn’t awkward
Its beautiful
All of a sudden I realized
I was helpless and fragile
Yet only able to succumb to your great force and power of love

Till then,

Happy Solar Head-bobby thingy

Yep, the solar head bobby thingy in my room is finally bobbing again.
It has to be placed on a totally flat surface before it actually works and finally after i dunno how long...
its moving again!

Anyways, feeling pretty tired these days since the finals is coming and stuff
and if you actually read about the counselling sessions Evelyn has been writing about, even I feel the pressure from it..
sure I walk in and talk crap with the dude but still there is only so many issues I can think of...
pretty glad that it will be ending soon and hell no I aint gonna be continuing. 
Finals are coming, so that adds to the extra stress. Bet everyone says this but, heck i'll say it again
time is passing so fast. 

Till I think of anything else to blog about,

Thanksgiving = Food = Good *:)

Shed A Tear - RyanHiga & friends

I didn't come up with this equation. It was Kyian, the emcee for the night, who did. Very random and a hundred percent true! Everyone cheered to that. *:)

It was staying back for approximately 4 hours after class and counselling session for this party. I would say all I anticipated was the food. They promised us turkey from Victoria Station and a very scrumptious meal in the name of a Thanksgiving party! That should, or must be able to satiate my cravings for delicious food.
Kudos to American Eagle club, which was kind enough to take up the job of organizing this event. And also, they were also 'kind' enough to leave us salivating for godknowshowlong with the nicely planned agenda by implementing loads of suspense in it.
Oh and while I was watching the performances, it hit me that I am actually in a Thanksgiving party and not other else. Of the seven performances that they had that night, four of them are Indian performances. I'm not being racist, but what has Indian dances got to do with Thanksgiving? Though I especially enjoy the performance by the lecturers. hawt!
Another performance was by an African dude who self-proclaimed as an adopted son? of Jabbawockeez, the kick-ass awesome dance crew. Well, he's definitely got some cool moves over there, but his style? Way out of a Jabbawockeez's.
Besides, Just The Way You Are by Bruno Mars is definitely overplayed, overrated, overdosed. Yeah the lyrics are pretty flattering and the whole world seems to be so addicted to this song. Darn! Anymore of it and i am sure going to puke. Like, SERIOUSLY! guhhh...

Finally, they let us attack the food and before Kyian gets to finish his sentence, i'm up from my sit, galloping my way to the food section. Well, I heard Cassandra saying, "wtf Evelyn?" Sorry pal, that's me :D
The food was indeed delicious. Except that they served it with some rather queer and weird tasting drink and rootbeer-taste-alike corns.
After dinner was the lucky draw plus a few more performances and the utterly hilarious broken telephone game. Never laughed so hard in my entire life till my abdomen and diaphragm hurts hell and i felt like i'm dying laughing. Its that bad. No joke.
So after that, we went to Bangsar for a drink at one of the mamaks before heading home.

 I'm a happy kid :)


bubble brandy!

As you can see, the title doesn't really make any sense at all. It originates from a random conversation I had with Justin in the beautiful evening during our walk to KPD E. He started telling me how he had a friend, whose dogs' names were Bubble and Brandy (yeah there are two dogs)

I have one thing in my mind right now, and it is bothering me, a great deal - my counseling sessions. So if you don't think you are going to be interested with it, that i'm going to talk about soon in the latter part of this post, you may close this window right now. No hard feelings since i won't know if you did it or not.

Aites. Well, initially, I signed up for these sessions with only one ultimate goal, which is to gain my bonus marks for Human Personality. And then soon after I found out that bonus points given was merely 2 marks. I stunned.
So morning started rather okay. Watched the fighting fish fight in Bio lab. Pretty amusing and scary. Never seen it before. Excuse the jakun speaking.
After that was the most dreaded counselling session with Father Philip. I really have no idea how to go through a counselling session without feeling agitated, frustrated & anxious.
The process goes in a perfect sequence, like this: Before entering the room - anxious; during the session - agitated; after the session - frustrated. Know why? The counselor freaking asks me to find problems in my life to share with him every single session we have together. I mean wth? Yet, the biggest problem is that I don't see that I currently have any major problems in my life! Damn. And he told me that he sees that i am a very bubbly, happy-go-lucky, easygoing and cheerful person.
Doesn't that just justify how I am not facing any major issues in my life because I know exactly how to manage my emotions and problems so that it doesn't affect me as much in my daily life?
Doesn't that just justify how i am not like the other problematic or imbecile clients that he may have counseled?
Doesn't that just mean that i am a very normal and positive person and should be encouraged to continue living the happy life i'm leading right now instead of trying to find a torn in my life which i don't think even exists?
Come on now. Get a grip!
Well, my current progress checklist:

- Counselling session 1
- Counselling session 2
- Counselling session 3
- Counselling session 4

One more session to go babe! And I so darn going to tell him that I really can't think of any problems I currently face in my life besides these counselling sessions. They are increasing my stress level, like, PROMINENTLY! So yeah. Go ahead and feel offended by the idea of it and ask me "why is that so? can you tell me more about it?" in that sort of Mandarin-speaking accent of yours. Bring it on. mroar

You may as well think that i'm a freak...



Smile - Uncle Kracker

As the title suggests, I am indeed, panic-stricken. ADP Department finally released the time table for our final examination and guess what? I realized its not so far from present as I initially thought it would be. With so many things in hand and so many subjects and chapters to read up on, I don't think I actually have enough time to cover everything. I'm all stressed up right now that I think I have no idea where to begin from. Need not say, my mind is all fogged and blur. I can't think straight because of this sudden attack and stress. I told my friend, Joey. Our parents think that it is really sad that many people in their time don't get to opportunity to get educated. Hold there and think again. We, this new generation, although blessed with unrestricted opportunity to pursue higher education, we get all stressed up as well. Sigh. Isn't it tough just to be a proper human at all?

In the middle of our Research Methodology class, a few students went up to interrupt and began talking about their BPsych Annual Ball. Sounds like its some genuinely cool stuff compared to the one ADP Student Council organized. Plus, they are going to have their warm-up party at Mist Club. How cool's that? They even got the Psychology Department lecturers to perform on that night itself. Price is RM110. I think it is so gonna worth the money if anyone, anyone at all, were to attend it. Gilbert and Hiran were tempted. Amanda and I were speechless.
Sometimes, telling lies and fooling around may not be a bad thing after all. Just like how Gilbert, Amanda, Vanesse and I were fooling around with Hiran about how fun was ADP Annual Ball and the after party. We made up and exaggerated stories which didn't exist at all. Like how I got drunk and had fun with the items in the door gift (Durex condoms and sunscreens). Hiran was skeptical, obviously. It was hilarious, how we actually applied research methods on our conversation, talking about testing, re-test and reliability of our information. Had a good time laughing out loud. Life's great until after class when I got to know about the finals time table. Gah... everything just had to spoil the good moments.
It was pouring too. Managed to hop in my car just in time during the break in between two periods of heavy rain. The drive home was SCARY! Never driven in rainy days and my first time just had to be the worst. I made it home safe and sound anyway. Knocked out on the sofa but it was not for long. Still, it manage to energize and recharge my almost empty body-battery. Guess that explains why I'm still up and blogging :D 

Despite all the chaos going on in my life, something still gives me hope 



imbecile. insecure. pathetic. paranoid.
Like all of a sudden you just left someone hanging and caused such a big fuss out of nothing? Ain't it obvious enough that this kind of childish silent treatment will only plague your loved ones? Got to stop this shit.
At the end of the day, I asked myself. Why so melodrama? I didn't know the answer to that.
Just simply feeling insecure, terrified.
I'm beginning to realize...

Just hang in there, i'm begging you.
i love you, x.

Haven't seen you for only a day
I miss you already

love &hearts,

Our Song - Taylor Swift

Just few days ago I experienced this throbbing migraine which completely burned my left brain into ashes. Excruciating much.
After giving some thoughts, I hypothesized that it could be because of the peak level of stress I experienced the night before. With Human Personality assignment due on the next day, guilt of having one of my friends stay up late to submit our then, incomplete assignment to turnitin.com and the troubles some sissy bastard has been causing.
I think at that time, I felt like I was on the verge of exploding into thousand pieces of smithereens and nobody was there to pick me up and put me back into pieces. I would be then, like a messed up jigsaw puzzle, where people will just drift past me, showing no signs of compassion

Friday and Saturday were two consecutive days with things going on under SASA. Friday was a talk on the psychology of people's management by my beloved lecturer, Dr. Goh. He used to be my lecturer for Social Psychology and since then, I always thought he looks very much like a teddy bear, so cuddly I feel like squishing him. Yeap, its not like I have a crush on this particular lecturer but I think he's quite an eye candy for a lecturer and few of my friends actually agreed with me!
Nevertheless, Dr. Goh is such good lecturer he don't need his super cuddly looks to keep me awake. I even love the way he conducts his lectures and talks. Very professional and interesting.
Showing some signs of envy over here heh... But its true. *shows straight face*
On Saturday itself was the highly anticipated SASA Awards Day. Well, kinda.
Because this is when we give out certificates to our new SASA juniors of 2011 who will then, lead the SASA team besides to the SASA seniors of 2010.
Time to step down folks. We're old already.
Basically, everything went well and I got a scroll with my certificates in it, just like everyone else. So niceeee... but, what am I supposed to do with it? Clueless *shrugs*

Yesterday, I was supposed to wrap up all the ohistillhavelotsoftimetocompletemyassignment feeling and begin to work on the remaining parts of my Western Philosophy assignment. Alas, after having breakfast out at Kayu Nasi Kandar with my aunt, who left to Singapore after breakfast, uncle lizard and wife came over to my place to pick up something and dragged us out to Sunway Pyramid. I thought, oh maybe its a good opportunity for me to just scout for my dress and heels for ball on Friday. So I tagged along.
After lots of strolling around, trying out many dresses and heels, proceeded with looking at some really pretty looking winter trench (they leaving for Scotland on Tuesday), my mind sort of drifted away from the real intention of me being there. I actually felt like ditching ADP ball, ditching assignments, ditching classes, ditching everything pending in my to-do-list to go to some winter country. With them to Scotland would be great :)
Lunch at Fullhouse was a little less than satisfying. I would say the food there is just ordinary. Not worth the price I paid for. Though, I would suggest you try going there on weekdays instead where they have the super deals for set lunch, I think that is worth it. Headed to Coffee Bean for some really nice scones, muffins, cheesecake and of course, ice blended hazelnut coffee. mmm...
I was eventually stuffed in the end :D
Went home empty handed while mum got herself a nice blouse with a really sweet pink tone. I would say I have decided on the dress and heels and reserved it. Gonna go get it on Wednesday cause it would be then, cheaper! *:)
Happy feeling was not short-lived. It even endured past the struggles I went through in completing my Philosophy assignment. I am still a happy child. *smiles smiles*


feather bubbles;

Dear Journal,
Mood: Rejuvenated, Hopeful
Weather: Gloomy
Song: Footprints in the Sand by Leona Lewis

And so they say, when you plan something, it doesn't always work out. So yesterday, I planned to blog as soon as I get home after dinner. Who knows. Headache since I reached college and it had gotten the best of me by dinner time. I was practically zombified by the time I showered and just crashed on my bed and knocked out. Well, kinda. At least I had some really nice dream with a pretty awkward and weird ending but that was besides the point.


Oh damn I woke up to this extremely bad migraine. I thought if I try to fall back into sleep, the pain will eventually fade away as I fall into slumber land. I was wrong. The pain was so extreme that I found myself whining in agony. I crawled over my sister and fell on the floor, trying to balance myself in the midst of the excruciating experience. The same thing kept on replaying at the back of my head - I need pills. I need pills. panadol... I NEED PANADOL... yet, all I was capable of doing was to sit there and trying to coordinate my muscles to my limbs. It was incredibly frustrating and I felt so helpless. mroar

I was more than relief when I heard my mum descending that flight of stairs. The rhythm as her sole landed on the wooden planks sounded like orchestra to me. So melodious. Well, at least she can help me find the right medicine I needed and save all the troubles that are gonna cause me if I were to look for it myself.

So I took my Panadol and dragged my footsteps back into my room and once more, collapsed in those warm sheets while my head continued to hurt. Oh, not to mention I teared, involuntarily. :'(
It was about fifteen till half an hour later till the medicine finally took effect and almost immediately, I fell back into deep sleep. Wasn't easy at all.


I woke up, almost like how those possessed people will when they suddenly open their eyes wide when sleeping and spent the next 2 hours with my eyes wide open. However, I was glad that the migraine was then, history and my heart was silent and peace. I grew tired of staying awake on bed in a horizontal position and fell asleep again zzzZZZ

Looking back, unfortunate events are not always negative and passive. At least, it gave me another thing to blog about. Doesn't it?

Today, someone brightened my day by giving me this...

"Hope this brightens your day! Go brighten someone else's!" :) :)


raindrops, sunshine

Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer

Had a philosophical conversation with daddy over the dinner table just now, left me deep in contemplation.
One suggestion from daddy that the universe we live in, could probably be one mere atom of a greater being gives me the chills.
Isn't it scary that something's out there even though we are not aware of and that we are not alone in this universe?
Isn't it scary that if one bigger thing has to contain a smaller thing, this universe is a never ending thing as things gets bigger and bigger to contain bigger things to smaller things?
These thinking of the bigger picture simply make our daily problems and rantings very insignificant as we are just living our petty and pathetic life with many complains.
Isn't it good if our minds just remain in stagnation since young? Oh i wish...

Anyway, was reading Amanda's blog when I came across this analogy fun we had a few months back which i didn't have a chance to post it up. I'll just extract it from her blog. Can't really recall the exact thing anyway...
So here goes:

June 3rd

On the way to lunch, someone made a romantic analogy I thought absurd, so I was like 'that doesn't connect, it's as bad as 'you'll be the tree and i'll be the monkey' and somehow the analogy game began.

It started out relatively harmless, like
"You'll be the fish, I'll be the chips"
"You'll be short-sightedness, I'll be the glasses"
"You'll be the spaghetti, I'll be the sauce"
"You'll be the soil, I'll be the earthworm"
"You'll be the leaf, I'll be the toad" (What the?) et cetera <-- i remember saying that
Basically anything complementary that came into mind.
And then everything went downhill from there
"You'll be the poop, I'll be the toilet" (talk about killing the vibe)
"You'll be the ass, I'll be the panties" Eve came up with this. Naughty naughty
"You'll be the ****, I'll be the ******" kk completely censored. Deemed inappropriate for public knowledge. <-- I still remember this. :)

Lol okay i'm taking forever to complete this post. I don't know what else to say. So, till then~

Some stardust to remember you by...



2012 - Jay Sean ft Nicki Minaj

Quote of the day : Hard work spotlights the character of people: some turn up their sleeves, some turn up their noses, and some don't turn up at all. - Sam Ewing


Something i don't always do, i'm doing it right now. Surprisingly. Blogging in the morning.
But, unlike the normal days too, i am very much energetic and hyped up albeit the mere four hours of sleep. I realized, the more sleep i get, the more tired i become (not in the long run though).
Yesterday night, I was feeling utterly frustrated and easily agitated by little things. As i was working on the assignment, myriad thoughts flashed past my mind, whether relevant or not.
Woot! Very tempted to write a piece of emotional, heartfelt and depressing post but the consequences are rather obvious and severe. Loved ones getting worried, anxious questions asked and perhaps some judgemental glances - oh this girl is having her pre-menstrual syndrome again, and she said it doesn't exist in her dictionary. pffttt...
Anyway, was working on Human Personality assignment the whole night till 6 in the morning. Though not quite efficient, as in the progress of it was very very slow, but i managed to finish my part. Just tell me how to be fast when there are just so many sources out there that you can refer to, all you aren't sure whether reliable or not, yet you have no other choices but to refer to them, and the frustrating citations you have to include when you have no idea on how to do it even. It is very frustrating you know...
Nevertheless, being in the mood saved it all. Fortunately, I had a thing going on in me, some sort of drive that says yes to staying up late to complete the assignment, something that kept me motivated the whole night. Of course, my playlist was being very helpful keeping my eyelids from closing down and also keeping my brain from shutting down on me. *:)
Guh I finally gotten back my Human Personality midterm marks and I felt like plunging down from the 9th floor I was at when I checked it. My heart sank the moment I saw my results. I think this is probably my worst result ever. EVER. I'm just so worried about my grades now.
Ish... There's just so many things out there to complete, yet so little time. Now I have two new wishes to be added to my wishlist whenever the clock strikes 11.11 or 1.11:

- I wish I can actually smile or grin every time I get back my results.
- I wish God gives me 48 hours a day to complete my things. I don't mind 48 hours days on normal occasions too! cause I will get to spend more more more time with you, stare stare stare at you. I know I know this is a very ridiculous and childish wish. but everyone has the right to wish for what they want, regardless whether their wishes come true or not.

I'm sorry for the lousy rants here cause I'm pretty sure 80% of the people reading this don't give a damn about what's going through my mind and how imbecile a kid i am being.
No, more like I doubt anyone will actually waste 3 minutes of their precious time reading the craps i wrote.
As for people who blogwalks: *clicks on my link, reads the first few sentences, sees where this post is leading to, 'oh another bitch rant', closes page* Ah so predictable...


just as our heartbeats, your breaths synchronize with mine;

Bad Day - Daniel Powter

As a complete contradiction to the song currently in my playlist, today was more than great. Ironic isn't it?

The day started with really heavy downpour. Chilly wind and gloomy sky. Weather like this makes me emotional yet weather like this is just perfect for cuddling with the warm sheets on that superbly comfortable bed. Bliss.
Biology lab today was a kill joy unfortunately. Reason being that I have to leave that place I can't get enough of to college for lab. :'(
Nevertheless, today's lab was a little different and fun mainly because it was flexible and we get to walk around the area to hunt for monocotyledon and dicotyledon plants (flowers and leaves). Back to the lab to examine the leaves under the light microscope. Saw some pretty cool leave patterns. Rather enlightening

Pizza Hut for lunch with Justin at Damansara Jaya delivery branch. Didn't have the set meal for two so we resolved something else. Got my hands on that new pizza with six different kinds of cheeses. Very satisfying (only applies to people who use hands to eat pizza instead of forks and knives). *:)

Remember where I talked about the Hennessy Artistry event on the previous post? (scroll down if you wish to confirm that you're blind)
Yeap so the post by Justin is up! Click Here

Hmm... something about snuggling up is unfathomably satisfying and addictive ♥
Aite I'm zoning out as I work on this post. Lots of long pauses in between each sentence just so you know. So weird.
Oh I love this song --> Beautiful Disaster by Kelly Clarkson
Plus, I'm so in love with the lyrics of Just The Way You Are by Bruno Mars. Girls, don't it just makes your heart flutter? Cause it does to mine :)
Happy Halloween Earthings!

&because there will be no reasons left for me to hate you whenever I stare at your beautiful face.

Till then lovely,

All About College…

Hmm… close to 11 months since I entered college and of course, I have made some observations and drawn some pretty weird conclusions about college slash university.

1. College is such a small compound so it is not astonishing to meet at least two friends of yours when walking down the corridor or around the common area. As for me, I always bump into my A Levels and Foundation friends and of course, greet them as we brush pass each other. Yet, this frustrates my ADP friends as they think I know everyone in college and some even claimed that I am showing off how popular I am. I had a big facepalm moment. Oh yes.

2. When bumping into friends, I realized, small talks that we initiate always revolves around these few things.

“Are you having break right now” or “Do you have class right now”

“What time is your class” or “Do you still have class later”

“So what subjects you taking this semester”

“Are you having your exams now”

“What is your major” or “What course you taking”

Nevertheless, I love small talks! :)

3. College is all about glamour. Even the words they use to describe the daily basic things are fancier than average. Example?

Quiz = Test

Assignments = Homework

Lecturer = Teacher

Cafeteria = Canteen

Lecture Hall / Class = Classroom

Break = Recess

4. My friends, especially A Levels friends, are talking about university applications and completing personal statements. Heck I haven’t even started applying at all. I am panicking I guess? I don’t even know what I am supposed to do. *cries*

5. This semester is pretty hectic I would say. Biggest reason being that I have quiz every single week, which means more studying than usual. Pfftt I wish I could go back in time where I only study when there’s major exams around the corner. :(

6. I have two college friends who are very much similar to me. Not in fashion sense, but music. We would sing songs to complete our sentences or even start singing a random song together. I love hanging out with them cause we just love to SING! Besides,they are people I can afford to go crazy with. Gilbert, with all the impersonation of Agent Salt and him being my boss; Amanda, with all the cool and fancy fist pounds and the most random topic we talk about.

7. Oh college is where I pick up random tunes from people around me and get the songs stuck in my head for the rest of the day. Things get ugly especially when I have a quiz on that day:

question one: which of the following is a false statement of…


*scratches head* *rereads question*

question one: which of the following… “feel.like.i’m.living.a.teenage.dream…”

*arghhh… rereads question*

Just so you know, I had a hard time finishing the paper. It was a struggle.

Lesson learnt: NEVER get a song stuck in your head before sitting for a quiz or exam. It will cause fatal consequences. Attempt at your own risk.


If you are thinking it only affects my exam, you guessing it wrongly. Even during class, the song can be pretty annoying.

Lecturer: Therefore, it is clear that when… “Snape, Snape, Severus Snape. Dumbledore!”

(tries to shrug it off…) *continues listening*

Lecturer: So it can be concluded that… “Ron, Ron, Ron Weasley! Hermoine, Hermoine…”

*bangs head at table*

In the end, I learnt nothing in class. Very good Pei Ning. Way to go!

Lesson Learnt: NEVER get a song stuck in your head before a lecture. It will cause fatal consequences. Attempt at your own risk.

8. Assignments due dates are closing in and I haven’t started on any yet! Kill me already.

9. Favorite hang out spot at college – Wisma HELP, level 9! :D

10. I don’t always have sufficient sleeping time ever since I enter college because everyone is a nocturnal! Everything comes alive at night.

*looks at the clock* 1am? Oh its okay. The night is still young… *continues fiddling with ze laptop*

People always think that the most painful thing is losing someone you love. The truth is… The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, forgetting that you are special too.

taa~ lovely.

ms. sunshine *:)

Rain - Mika

Hmm... back to square one. Can't seem to find the right words to start this post.
Been writing a lot and deleting everything I wrote for so many times I feel a little frustrated now.
Anyway, I went to sleep at 11.30pm and woke up 2 hours later feeling groggy, hungry, hot and very much awake. Went to kitchen to dig for food and found digestive biscuits!
Ate five pieces of it and two pieces of bread with peanut butter spread. I guess I'm full and satisfied right now. *:)

Hennessy Artistry was just now. Hmm... Justin went for it and came back sober.
Should I have gone with him?
Nah... too late for regrets now since its OVER! Gotta stay tuned to his blog for updates about that event. :)
Here's the link if you haven't got it - http://yeejinlim.blogspot.com

Hmm... I'm slacking off gradually. I'm not actually studying when I need to.
I have Philosophy quiz on Monday and Research Methods quiz on Tuesday yet I haven't really read any of it a bit at all. I'm so scared yet I'm not working hard enough.
I guess I'll have to pull myself together and work really hard tomorrow. Hope I will still have the time since I might be out half the time celebrating my sister's 21 birthday.

On the brighter note, I have been learning a new piece; soundtrack from Final Fantasy.
Sister gave a very discouraging feedback saying that it sounds like a very gloomy and sad song, something you will most probably hear in a funeral. :(
Anyway, her comment didn't bother me that much since I still like that song very much and manage to learn it within a week; which is very fast compared to learning other pieces. Heh... well, more like because I can't seem to control myself from going back to the piano every two hours, hoping to perfect the imperfect and awkward playing.

Woot. Didn't realize the time. Its 3.33am right now. Shouldn't I be sleeping right now? Hmm... he is sleeping, everyone is sleeping. I guess now is the best time to study. Quiet and serene with no one to disturb. But I guess somehow I'm tired and am certain I can't stay awake for long. Should I attempt to study a little before hitting the sack or dive into bed just like that? Ishh... decisions.
Hmm... Of all the times when I'm free, my Research Methods lecturer don't upload the chapter for us. Until moments before when I checked, she uploaded it finally but I don't have the time to read up already. I guess not everything goes your way and its time for me to learn that shits happen in life.
Oh gosh realized the crap I'm talking about? I apologize because this is what happens to me when I am in a state of serious sleep deprivation. Shall be signing off right now!

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I is what I had no control over.

Toodleloo, Love. *:)

Chicken chop & fairy dust

A while back, was in college for extra classes and evelyn was also there so lepaks for a bit
Yea went to starbucks and met a friend there.
Sorry bout the watermarking..lazy to remove XD

Itu kawan that we met at starbucks 

 Itu saya, camwhoring as usual

I know, the title doesn't make sense at all.

& as our fingers entwine, rainbow shines ♥

King of Anything – Sara Bareilles

There are moments where I am not entirely sure if I am doing the right thing. I guess it would be better to have at least the thinnest barrier to mark a territory which I name – Safety

Last Saturday was the random barbecue party at Justin’s place. Out of the blue, it was planned during a lunch break at the underground cafeteria of Wisma E&C last Monday. A Facebook event page was then created at night. Random much huh?

Went to Justin’s place after our Biology replacement class in the morning which lasted till 11.30am. Stopped by Giant to grab some stuffs. Began setting up around half past four. :)

Night started off with some finger foods like the deliciously made garlic bread while waiting for the arrival of others and most importantly, the meats. :D
Well, I can’t tell you exactly how delicious that garlic bread was but I am certain that approximately six of us finished the whole tray of it. Of course, we left another tray for the rest. *:)
Look at the happy faces… :D
I have no idea how to write this post so I shall just end it with some pictures after doodling a little more. So James was being James, enjoying himself at the barbecue pit while Sarah, Lynn at the other pit. Amanda and Michelle were hanging around that pit waiting to grab bites after foods were ready being them food-craving selves.mini-IMG_0757
At one point, the marshmellows were brought out and many of us crowded around the pit. Love how the marshmellow will flow out and melt in your mouth after you bite deep into the crispy outer layer. *squeals* :D
Soon after, the card plus drinking game began with people getting drunk within split seconds; somebody like Woon Kheng. Some were just tipsy after a few shots.
That table was the most happening and noisy compared to the rest of the compound. After the game, Mayuri was sober, dancing and prancing around along with the beat of the music in her hyped up state; Phil was drunk and felt the necessity to convince the rest of us that he was not drunk just tipsy slash sober; Cassandra was very drunk till she knocked out a few times with some really crazy laughter in between each subconscious and unconscious state.
It is amazing how just Tiger beers, a bottle of Whisky, a bottle of lousy red wine and half a bottle of Tequila can create such madhouse. pffttt…
Cassandra was laughing hysterically, whining and puking so much that some of us freaked out a little. Lots of running around fetching Chinese tea for drunk people and clearing up the after party.
Waited till Cassandra’s heroic brother to come in his distorted “black horse” - proton wira to get the drunk princess before we all headed home about one in the morning.

Sad for me, suffered migraine for the night and the rest of the next day. Pain was excruciating that it affects the acuity of my senses. :(

It is better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.
PeiNing & YeeJin


Quote of the Day: A fair reputation is a plant, delicate in its nature and by no means rapid in its growth. It will not shoot up in a night like the gourd of the prophet, but like that gourd, it may perish in a night. - Jeremy Taylor

Countless of sleepless nights left me a breathing skeleton. Been trying to stay up late at night to study for Human Personality but to no avail. Sleeping on the black couch in my living room for two consecutive nights. Gentle spin of the ceiling fan instead of the air-conditioned room. Everything, just for one trivial reason - studying for Human Personality. :(
You know, I must me nuts from the moment I made up my mind to major in Psychology. I must be crazy.
Midterm was extraordinarily tough. I realized, all the cramming and stress I picked up when studying, all for nothing. The questions turned out to be majority application of theories and critical thinking.
I died. Bet some of my coursemates died too. We died.
I just want to get good grades so that my credits are transferable! :(

I am in desperate need to get more sleep. Bad news is, the rapids ain't over yet. I still have Biology quiz on Monday and Philosophy quiz on Thursday. Not a week to look forward to.
Nevertheless, I can't wait for the barbecue party at Justin's place on Saturday notwithstanding the Biology replacement class in the morning on that day itself. Sigh...

Btw, congratulations to all the rescuers for their pouring efforts to save the trapped miners in Chile. This inevitably marks the rebirth of 33 previously despaired lives. This is more than mere miracles. Gives me chills at the sight of how everyone rejoice when those miners stepped out from the capsule to reunite with their loved ones. Gives me goosebumps at the sight of how happy tears streaked down faces of the spectators. This incident is definitely a historical one. One in a million, it is.
Also, this is one of the top searched news in Google. I'm looking at a webpage where people in the whole wide world are constantly updating their twitter on this rescuing of Chilean miners. Just so you know, updates are still swarming in like crazy.

Last night, my boyfriend and I attended another school's football game.
His best friend was talking about how hot the girls were and how perfect they were.
My boyfriend brushed off the comment and whispered in my ear, "You're the most beautiful girl here and I love you."


mixed feelings;

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