Doesn't Everybody Want to Fall in Love - Kristinia Debarge

I haven't been blogging frequently like how I did last month and the previous month. Well, I have concrete reason for this slack attitude. Mainly was because I have lost the momentum for blogging. But the passion remains though. :) So at least the spirit which is the most important thing in doing something hasn't been gone. Just so you know, I am quite busy with stuffs too. Therefore making this post hibernate as draft for too long, forever perhaps? :/
Last Thursday was my English second round of presentation. Well, since I was already prepared, I was the first to go out. Surprisingly, only Loh and I were prepared for it. The others... got scolding. Mr. Marzuki was way too pissed. He went on and on and even said the 'i' word. Well, I didn't expect that. What surprises me more is that he actually smokes. Well, I guess nothing can be perfect in this world and my impression towards him dropped a little inevitably. Sarah said she smell tobacco occasionally when he enters the class but all I could smell was that stinky sweat odor which evokes high school PJK memories every time he enters the class panting, gasping for air. Those days~ (:


Sunday was the trip to Sg. Tengi specially organized for the Malaysian Studies project. Its 30% yo! To be frank, I believe we could actually produce a much quality and cheap trip to somewhere else nearer like prolly the cultural centre in Kuala Lumpur. It is much more rich regardless of information, demonstration or whatsoever compared to what we have seen back there in Sg. Tengi. Sorry to say that but my group leader sort of insisted on that trip that she used the same old reason of having a successful trip when she followed that high school trip few years ago. No doubt she put lots of effort in getting the date, place booked and everything else well organized, but the price is a pain. Seriously. Even though all the group members had to come up with RM100 per person and even with the money participants, which is way too hard to gather had to pay - RM85, no way that the sky high cost could be completely covered. I guess its too bad for us that we have to pay for another Godknowshowmuch money to cover back the cost. Don't you think that it is a little foolish for us to have to pay so much just for the marks which even we can't guarantee that it will go any higher also? Sometimes being ambitious may be a good thing where the goals set will set us to strive harder and keep us motivated throughout but being too ambitious also in the meanwhile, not really a good sign. Well, I guess when you set to do something, it is impossible that you can please everyone with that decision you made as what gay celebrity, Adam Lambert said. So, the weather there was scorching hot, sun burning right through our skin, on the verge of tearing them apart. On the way home however, heavy rain poured down, moistening the bitumen road while everyone in the bus doze off into deep sleep, allowing the air-conditioner in the bus to cool down our previously sweaty bodies. It was not till late evening when we finally were back to HELP. Dislike the phenomenon we saw at the palm oil factory where clouds of smog gush out the oversize chimney and also the part where their sprayed dirty oil on us. Well, having deer poops stuck underneath my shoe is inevitable where this led me to brushing and cleaning right after reaching home in the rain. Unseen dirt and grease made my body felt sticky and greasy plus the amount of dried sweat released. I was filthy. Practically bathed twice as I not only took twice the amount of time I used to when I bathe, but also do the bath routine twice for everything. So, I should be sparkling all the way by the end of the night eh? By the way, thank you so much, Chong De for giving up time and money to support this trip! Much appreciated. (:


Ms. Kalpana, my computer lecturer has gone back to India, leaving us behind with two other new lecturer which we have met one of them on Monday. She was rather less boring and faster in pace when teaching compared to our former lecturer, which is a good thing still. (: No idea how our lecturer for tutorial will be but will soon disclose on Thursday itself after the many upcoming presentations by everyone else. Keep the fingers crossed!
Psychology group assignment's due date is this Friday. Yet, my group is still procrastinating while everyone is busy with the many quizzes and other assignments. As Mr. Marzuki said, we have to learn to prioritize, turned out to be quite true. Well, it had to since he is almost half a century old already. No offence but seriously. He has to be somehow wiser and more accurate in things he says. Ain't that right? :D Stats quiz is on this Wednesday and I am not ready yet. Can't really grasp the idea so I guess today is going to be a long long day. Dread it and can't wait. Mixed feelings. -.-

Sometimes when I say “I’m okay”, I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight, and say, “I know you’re not.”

Quit telling me that you love me
Because I already know that you do

Toodles~ (:
Love, eve

Works for ME!!

Baby - Justin Bieber

Facebook says it all. It really does all the time. News over there spread like bush fire. Worse than bush fire in fact. :/
So few days before the release of SPM result, everybody was already changing their status to something related to SPM. Even in MSN. And that really freaks me out cause I wasn't panicky at all. Its weird. Not like I did for UPSR or PMR but hey!! This is SPM. Its a total different story. Anyway, I had more in mind. I had assignments, presentations, project et cetera. ADP is a program which can be way cooler than any other program but when it comes to passing up stuffs or anything, it may be one of the program which stresses you out the most. But overall, ADP is one of the program where people had spent their time meaningfully there. It is like a family where everyone knows each other because of its small size of group.
Anyway, I realised I wasn't even nervous or whatsoever over this day - 11th March 2010. The only reason I changed my status in Facebook to as if I was actually feeling the nerves creeping up on me was merely because I felt the need to do so as part of the routine and also partially peer pressure since everybody was doing the same. I feel like I have to conform with others on the whole feelingnervousthing. Moreover, I had a good night sleep the night before the day and even dreamt of something irrelevant but happy. It was either I was over confident or college's stuffs are really getting on my nerves and practically shifted my attention from that day
Due to the presentation in the afternoon I was supposed to do, I dressed up abnormally formal. Upon arriving in school, I realised people were staring at me with the look which I interpreted as where-on-earth-does-she-think-she-is-going?? With my mum's formal shoes but it totally fits my feet size, I really looked like I was Hilary Clinton campaigning for the presidency of America few years ago. Nevertheless, the presentation plan was burned as Mr. Marzuki totally forgotten that we were supposed to present that day and prepared something else for us instead. Well, nobody had the guts to stand up front and tell him till class was going to end in approximately 15 minutes when he brought up the presentation topic that we confessed. What was worse was that he even praised me for the way I dressed cause it makes me look more "confident" in a way and suggested me wearing that sort of outfit more often. Derrick Chiang, who was planning on presenting on the same day as I was going to, too, dressed up quite formally with collared shirt and a pair of black pants just for the presentation. What I have in mind is that I think Mr. Marzuki thought that we have to dress up formally to school to get our SPM results. :( But anyway, it is for sure that I am going to present this week. *fingers crossed*
Aiites! Back to the topic. So we were hanging around, catching up with each other which I didn't do much because they all seemed to enjoy standing near the concrete building which conducts heat and burning even standing in the shades under it. I much prefer standing under big shady trees, more natural and environmental friendly in a way. After prolly five till ten minutes, the heat was rising up to burn my brains and I gave up. Dragging along Shu Ning and Yi Xuan, we went to look for Pn. Chin in her air-conditioned office. How kind of her for letting and inviting us to stay there in her office and chat with us while we cool our body down to a much normal temperature. :) Aww... I really missed attending her class while she crack jokes that are really cold where they makes you think whether to laugh or not. :D After a while, she sort of shooed us back to the hall to check on our results but in the end suggested texting other teacher to find out whether has the results been released. How sweet! :)
Everybody was crowding around the area where my former form teacher, Pn. Azlina was sitting with the piles of papers, peeping. Well, I had to squeeze into the line as I had to leave early for my sister, who was having class at 1.00pm. Great! :| Well, since the guys are tall enough, and Jo Keat is tall enough, he helped me by telling me how well I scored. Well, of course I could not bring myself to trust completely in case he saw it wrongly and lead me to practically having the fallflatfromsky kind of stupid situation, I prefer to believe partially of it. Seeing those who were lining up in front of me flash those brilliant smiles when they turn their body around to face the crowd, that was when my nerves started to build up within me, attacking every inch of my vulnerable serenity. Well, turns out that my result is better than what I expected while I shoot up to be one of the top students in our school as far as I am concern. :) Thumbs up for me! Looking forward to the Hari Penyampaian Akedemic! If I can make it...


So while I am up at 4.35am typing this post, I am actually speaking to Monsieur Hiran who keeps me laughing all night with his stupid, naive yet entertaining questions... Here are some of the highlights ( Vampire Chronicles - him ; Vampire Kingdom - me ):

As you see, my MSN personal message says : stupidthunder. ihateyou! And here is how it begins

--->:[-Vampire Chronicles-:[ says: hay...mind if i ask u smthing? whom u were hating? in ur status? before. bf?

。❤。 •Vampire Kingdom • 。❤。* says: it was the thunder damn it.. you didn't read it properly.. its still there now.. it says - stupidthunder. ihateyou! -.-

:[-Vampire Chronicles-:[ says: stupidthunder???? whos that?? lol

* 。❤。 •Vampire Kingdom • 。❤。* says: stupidthunder is not a person... instead, IT IS THUNDER AKA the sudden loud noise which comes from the sky especially during a storm, WHICH I DESCRIBE AS STUPID!!!

:[-Vampire Chronicles-:[ says: so its like u r simply blaming the rain.. correct??

Another hilarious one :

:[-Vampire Chronicles-:[ says: wish i could read ur blog

* 。❤。 •Vampire Kingdom • 。❤。* says: why not?

:[-Vampire Chronicles-:[ says: but how? u dont need account? like in fb?

* 。❤。 •Vampire Kingdom • 。❤。* says: another naive question... its like any other webpage where you can browse as you like unless the owner privatise it! OMG!! OMG MAN HIRAN!

So, its 4.44am now. I am going to post this and go to bed. I am not totally immortal just like him, I have human blood in me too. If you don't get this, you probably do not have enough knowledge about the vampire world. I suggest Twilight saga for you. Its very romanticy though. But it gives you the rough idea on vampires. :)

I am not a quitter. I will fight until I drop. It is just a matter of having some faith in the fact that as long as you are able to draw breath in the universe, you have a chance
- Cicely Tyson

Love, eve

Where did that come from? It was incredible!

Do You Remember - Jay Sean

I don't want to put so much burden on myself. I believe will collapse one day if I continue to do so. Seriously. Its like I have to learn to relax and cope with things at the same time, making sure I keep up with the pace which I realised I am slowly drifting off and left behind. I am struggling too! Striving to finish up things before due dates. Thinking everything will be fine is sheer self-deception, because nothing comes easy. I don't want everything to be on hiatus and eventually affects my grades. This is my ordeal where I yearn to get out of it as soon as I get the chance to.
We are all in the same boat. So why can't I do it when others can? There must be a reason behind it and I have to dig the truth out before it is too late to cry over spilled milk. Good luck to us all
Just had Psych Quiz today. And mid-term for Psych coming up on Tuesday. Presentation on Thursday, SPM results on the same day. GG DOT COM! More studying, more preparation, more anxiousness, more fidgeting, LESS sleep. My eye bags are droopy. I look like a total nut case. My EN101 lecturer said I looked like I just came out from an asylum. Nice job man. Cause I think I really look that bad. Weekend is crucial for me. I should consider getting more than 12 hours sleep for both the days. :(


I feel like I am drifting apart from everybody. Its like everyone is so busy with their own stuffs especially me, busy like a bee and cant' even find time for each other. Hang out or something. Chilling. Watch movies at the cinema. Catching up with each other. Go shopping together. Times in high school seriously made an impact on me. Now, everybody has grown up, living their own life and prolly some getting married in few years time if luck goes in their way. Everything is happening too fast that I could not believe that I am going to be 18 at the end of this year. How does that sound? Scary or what? *chuckles* :)
So, I release my stress by watching Facebook videos, as Daniel says. Its really funny, for those that I posted in my profile. Really some great break of all the hectic moments which I loath much. :D
I wrote " You may talk to me! " in my personal message and two person gave response to that. Andrew came first with " I am talking to you now. " while the more interesting one came from Hoc Leong, whom I did not expect a conversation from him any bit at all. So here goes. @.-

HoC LeoNg.xD says:Lol May i talk to you?XD

Pei NinG says:yes you may.please proceed.;D

HoC LeoNg.xD says:Lol i would like to order a single burger of filet o fish

Pei NinG says:okay. anything else??drinks? ice cream?

HoC LeoNg.xD says:oh im on diet

Pei NinG says:oh sure...

HoC LeoNg.xD says:do you all serve diet coke?hahah

Pei NinG says:what about a diet coke?of course

HoC LeoNg.xD says:oh sure a cup of large diet coke then

Pei NinG says:okay. right away!*shouts in distance*one fillet burger
and a large diet coke*thud*here you go sir.its RM 8 in total hahah

HoC LeoNg.xD says:LOL oh wo shi zhong guo ren, do ni men accept ren min bi?hahaha

Pei NinG says:yes! wo men are in china now.of course accept ren min bi, what a dumb question

HoC LeoNg.xD says:oh fei chang hao fei chang hao

Pei NinG says:wei you haven't pay la.

HoC LeoNg.xD says:what a long way to say hi to you, oh*hand over money*..........*waiting for change*

Pei NinG says:what change?? how much did you pay?...

HoC LeoNg.xD says:oh, sry my bad i should ask do you all receive cheque?lolll

Pei NinG says:* kicks you out of the restaurant * GET OUT!

***THE END***(I mean the starting of normal conversation)XD

Credits to Hoc Leong who posted this on Facebook also and I just simply copied it from there. There are some flaws which doesn't make any sense at all if you realised but this is really cheeky and totally sparked up the night and helped a little with my migraine. Thanks dude! :)

Life sucks. Seriously. Its like God playing tricks on us. But we have to face it no matter what. So why don't face it with a positive mind?

Love, eve

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