Sorry or not?

The air outside is still, the heat is radiating
The old fan in my room still spinning slowly
Everything around me seems to be rising along with the heat
Leaving me alone struggling to get rid of the weight pulling me down
I am drowning into a world of confusion and mystery

I am now lying safe and sound on my comfortable bed
But my mind and my thoughts are racing
Within seconds my tears damps the soft pillow
And my cheeks are moisturised
I am breathing heavily against the mattress
Hoping problems can escape from me along with everything else when i exhale

I accept and admit that i have fired back at her at times
And even bombarded her with ugly words that shatters her fragile yet loving heart
But most of the time i just take a deep breath
Enduring all the pain silently without a word to defend myself
I listened and accepted

Every human has its limits
I felt utterly insulted by her words
Everything sounded true but they pierced through me
Leaving all my principles behind
I lost control of my emotions

However after i fell into deep contemplations
Part of the saying is incredibly true
I feel sorry yet not at the same time
My contradicting thoughts make me feel so hollow and helpless inside
While i am writing this down
I still remained torn in between
Whether to say sorry
And apologise for my wrong doings

Helpless creature is feeling remorse...

Crave for More and More Ice-cream?

Can't get enough of ice-creams? Or trying hard to keep yourself away from Häagen-Dazs ice cream as it takes up most of your pocket money? Get it all in McDonalds! Hahaha... You can simply stop by in any McDonald store to get ice cream sundae for just RM 2 ! Offer lasts till 7th of December i think... So if you love ice cream more than anything else, get it now! Do i sound like i'm making an advertisement? Anyway, buy it now! I myself bought three in two days... hahaha... I'm getting fatter in other words.Just get here... --->And get this!

Currently listening to If I Were A Boy by Beyonce

Atlantis Hotel - World Most Prestigious Hotel

Dubai's £950 million Atlantis hotel has officially opened on Thursday has been built by Sol Kerzner, a South African hotelier, on the Palm Jumeirah island. Shrugging off global financial crisis for a moment, Dubai along more than 2000 world celebrities included film stars and sporting greats witnessed the spectacular fireworks display in the extravagant big bash.

It is not only a lavishly built hotel, the Atlantis Hotel is also boasts that its dolphin facility - Dolphin Bay, will be the first rescue and rehabilitation centre present for stranded and injured dolphins in Dubai. However, it has been condemned by environmentalists for shipping the dolphins from the South Pacific to the Middle East to stock a marine attraction. I personally don't agree to this too as the dolphins might not be able to get used to new environment. So i guess it is not really a practical idea. * shrugs*

Currently hooked on to Forensic Heroes I and Forensic Heroes II. Get to learn how to think like them!

Crave for Bonding Sessions

As we have planned for months, the bonding session was carried out at Shu Ning's place yesterday. I went to Sahara field around 9.30am to meet up with Shu Ning, Jennifer, Khai Sern and Joel. Thinking Khai Sern will ask me to play volleyball with him as he said in MSN, i wore a mini skirt with a pants that comes with it to enable easier movement. The concrete was wet and Khai Sern was preoccupied in teaching Joel how to play volleyball so i ended up talking to Shu Ning and Jennifer while i let myself in for being a victim of the aggressive mosquitoes there.

When the clock almost strike 10, we headed back to Shu Ning's house. Just a short while later, Xin Wei, Geber and Joseph arrived. We were in the kitchen doing the preparations. Cutting cucumber in a very small size is always difficult for me but i realised that i'm not the only amateur there. Joel did an extremely dangerous thing when he continued cutting the sausages while his eyes were running wild looking elsewhere but the sausages. After cutting the cucumber, i went on to pounding nuts for the upcoming chocolate cookies which i missed. I knew i should not pound till it turned powder but somehow i got distracted like how Joel did and over-pounded the nuts. Fried eggs then proceeded making pizza.

The process was long, messy and busy. Hands were everywhere grabbing ingredients to add on to each pizza. Xin Wei likes cheese so much that she filled the whole pizza with so much cheese. Our pizza ended up too oily but i still liked it because of the vegetables, onions and sausages i like. Xin Wei made a smiling face on the pizza to represent a cheerful pizza, a happy day and of course to make our pizza significant.

While waiting for the pizza to be ready in Shu Ning mum's oven, the moment i longed for is here. Popia time! I just love the process of making popia and the taste of it. Its such a bliss when you get to taste the popia made by yourself. The popias made by Joseph was a total failure as he had almost all the ingredients in it dropped on the plate and the sauce was dripping all over. Everybody was entertained by his clumsiness. I still ended up making slim popia although i tried hard not to by putting lots of stuff in it.

When the pizzas were ready, we put the popias aside and enjoy our respective pizza. When i started eating my fourth piece, Joel started tossing the remains of his pizza around claiming that he cannot finish it and is very full. It was just one bite away. He was okay until Joseph joked, ' Try tickling him, he sure laugh one.' Before he even finishes his not funny joke, Joel rushed to the toilet and vomited. We were all shocked and started blaming Joseph for mentioning that. Feeling guilty and sorry, he remained silent until Joel strolled back to his seat calmly and nodded profusely as he bombarded him with words of concern.

Everything was perfectly alright until...Joseph and Xin Wei became hysterical.In the midst of making. Mine is definitely the smallest.Fear factor challenge - Drinking a cup of Pepsi.
Hear no evil. See no evil. Speak no evil.

We rested our stomach for digestion by playing cards. I started by playing speed with Shu Ning and she was so aggressive that the feelings i had when playing with her during Form 2 strucked my like a series of lightning. Still the same huh? Then i proceeded playing Chor Dai Di with Geber, Joseph and Shi Jing. So the noob won the first round! Learned how to play poker also.

The next interesting meal was pulut inti. Mine was okay except for one i made which was retarded as i put too much pulut in it. Khai Sern had problem with the banana leaves as he kept on putting the pulut at the wrong side. Again another joke of the day. I ate two and packed some home for my family. When we moved on to making chocolate cookie, my mum called and moments later, i had to pack and bid my goodbyes. So my day ended like that while the others had much more fun after that until around 5 o' clock.

Join the crowd.Mine was again smaller than the others.Happy family.

Evocative Dreams

It has been a week since it all ended at the pavement
Laughter we shared has turned to memories
It is for us to reminisce the nostalgic moments
And move on with our lives in the meantime
Occasionally when I stop and contemplate
I vividly recall how i greeted it with scepticism
But it all ended with worthwhile experiences.

I genuinely thank those who moulded me, and
Bow out gracefully from my prejudice against him,
Respect him as a man who was made for good
Because of them
Because of him
I have shed off my old hasty attitude
To a deductive person.

I had my first
Will have my last
I'd grasp any opportunity which lays out on to me
Leaving no regrets in the course of time, and
Learn from my flaws to achieve prestigious goals.
I will.

Photos for Cameron Highlands Camp 2008

Photos are finally up! I just couldn't wait for Jessica to send me the pictures so i just grabbed them from Li Ren's facebook profile. So the credits goes to Li Ren!Fell in love with this house! It was at the end of the lot of houses we were staying in.Isn't it nice? It is like my dream house!On our way to the field.Some random poses which i have no idea what i was doing.This is the transferring rubber band game which my group sucked at it. Well, actually Bernard and i sucked at it. We kept on dropping the rubber band so...Disgusted expression seeing other groups did so well... =.=Balloons are always not my forte so i was the last in the line...Balls to hold on. So each person has to hold on to at least 5 balls. * adult joke*Group picture on the bridge before we headed into the forest...As a good friend, i'm willing to help my friend who is an amateur in jungle treking.Platform where we had to pick our own route to go! Nice, i followed sir to the tough one.What was i doing? I've got no idea also. Camera shy perhaps?Sir giving his speech!Look at how steep the route we picked!But i liked it. Full of challenges and i'm still clean at the end of the day.But the clumsy Kah Kheng who was in front of me had his back covered with mud...Busy discussing our performance before the Malam Kebudayaan started but still screwed it. So what we have done? Was to no avail.My group! The Thorny, Horny Cactus!Barbecue night started right after our performance!We played games after we ate!The females of the camp.Candid moment with the theme as "SCANDAL"Males of the camp.Their candid and the formal ones are almost the same. Except for Bernard and MC... real scandal behind MC's jacket!Group picture! CHEESE!Stopped by the waterfall. Spot me in the picture!