lethargy

I'm Not Missing You - Stacie Oricco

such contradiction if i were to deny the above song title...

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something about today that made me feel all lazy and unproductive

woke up in the morning to some noise coming from downstairs (the living room i presume), and so i was right, there was a visitor in my house. checked the time on my phone, it was already way past 12 noon

i guess the lazy bug got to me and i was infected, the entire day i was just zombieing around the house being unproductive, well at least i felt that i wasn't

i wanted to watch a movie, but stopped about 15 minutes later

i wanted to sing some songs, not any song came to my mind so i shut up in the end

i wanted to listen to some songs, but the catchy rhythm just zombied in and out of my ears

i wanted to grab something to keep my mouth busy, there's nothing at home to munch on

i wanted to play the piano, it sounded like crap and spoilt my already kaput mood

i wanted to read a book, i stopped almost immediately after the first sentence

i have no mood for whatever thing today, simply none

i need to get back to track in search of my mood, my inspiration, i don't even feel like writing this post actually, but i forced myself to, just a heads up for everyone about how much i am a potato couch today

i sleep a lot lately, more than i supposed to, and that makes me think of a life of a retiree, boring, mundane, unproductive and obviously, like you're only waiting for death to come knocking at your door

do i sound like i'm joking? cause i'm not

my whole body feels like it is losing its energy, so tired, so lethargic

i need a body massage, to relax my muscles, but i am ticklish, so what now?

i feel like i am contradicting myself, or maybe i am just babbling a bunch of nonsensical period absent sentences throughout

meh i need someone to inject some adrenaline into my lifeless and almost soulless body

i need some life into my boring life

i need some color into my black and white film in this 21st century

i need life in conclusion

uh bye

no mood

talk to ya later

evie